the latest

So I wasn't going to blog about the latest, but I realized that I need to - this blog has tracked each stage of my pursuit and achievement of my miracle goal...

2/14 "Answered Prayer"
2/18 - "All The Glory To God"
2/28 - "I'll Call You Soon"
3/1 - "Soon Arrived"
3/2 - "Shhhh..."
3/15 - "Sparks"
3/21 - "Take His Hand?"
3/22 - "To Hang Or Date"
3/23 - "Miracle Goal"


Nine blogs (and probably some more without direct mention) out of my 100+ blogs pertain in some way, shape, and form to my journey with Boaz, and well it is only fitting then that this blog chronicles that ending of that chapter of life...

It is actually strange to write in here, sort of making it real...although I am not Cleopatra or anything (Queen of de-nial...)!!!

Anyway, the chapter is closed. Boaz turned the last page a week ago today. The story in its entirety is not over per se, but the chapter certainly is.

Remember those five stages of "grief" I posted? Well, I think in the last week I've gone through them all, except bargaining actually and it IS true that you don't travel through them in that specific order - I think I kind of did the reverse and then made my way back full circle: acceptance, denial, depression, anger, and back to acceptance.

See the thing in writing this blog entry is that Boaz knows this URL now, and well yeah and some laughter for fun, and well...kind of strange to be writing about something that someone else can read, when that someone else is sort of at the center of that something!!! (Did you follow that???)

So perhaps on THAT note I should end this blog entry...I have much to say on this topic, as I am sure if any of you actually know me are well aware of, but for the sake of maintaining some level of decorum I will keep silent...

I will say though, regardless of who does and doesn't read this, that in all sincerity and honesty - I still value and respect and admire who Boaz is, and am truly appreciative of what our relationship brought to my life, and what it taught and continues to teach me about myself.