answered prayer

first off "happy single awareness day" to you all!!!

I worked late today, but the end of the work day finished with a cherry on top...I was given a raise. Now the thing with this raise is that just a week ago on Thursday I was looking at my bills, etc and thinking I am going to need to take a second job, and I was attempting to put into practice what Lisa had talked on in family devotions a couple of weeks back about "not worrying, for tomorrow has enough worries" and I had let it go. So today when they told me of the raise, I could hardly believe it. PRAYER ANSWERED!!!

Additionally on Monday February 6th I prayed for a friendship to grow and develop with "someone" and within that week I saw and interacted with that "someone" five times and in a way cemented the friendship. PRAYER ANSWERED!!!

However, there is this part of me that is in some way is asking God, "Why?" "My prayers aren't usually answered with such swiftness, why now?" "What are you up to?!" In asking these questions, I am left to imagine that God must be shaking his head, and muttering "My child, you moan when I "don't" answer your prayer, and moan when I do - what more do you want?!"

And I don't want any more - I am THANKFUL. Very, very much so -- I don't understand it, perhaps less so than when hardship hits. In some respects it has me hesitant to pray for the "next thing." Parallel with the prayer though, was a sense of letting it go -- after praying, after voicing the need, I let it go, I gave it to God; I ceased worrying and postulating and let it be - so perhaps that is the greater lesson, that all those times of being told to "let go and let God" when finally put into action have a sense of return.

THANK YOU GOD - THANK YOU FOR SWIFT ANSWERS, FOR ASSURANCE THAT YOU ARE LISTENING AND THAT YOU HEAR MY CRY. THANK YOU THAT IN YOU ALL MY NEEDS AND YES, EVEN DESIRES ARE MET. I DON'T DESERVE IT, BUT I AM EVER THANKFUL THAT IT IS BY YOUR GRACE AND NOT BY ANYTHING THAT I COULD SAY OR DO. I PRAY TONIGHT FOR BOLDNESS FROM TWO STANDPOINTS AND I PRAY FOR THE BRICKS TO KEEP ON FALLING!!! YOUR CHILD - ELLIE.