full

I actually wrote the following post last night, but I wrote it on a piece of paper that I've now left behind at my place. However, the sentiment is still the same and even more so.

Yesterday as the night made itself known I sat reflecting on my day, and my heart was full. It was full with thankfulness for the undeserving goodness God has lavished on my life. Even again now as I sit here to write, my heart is full and there aren't words to adequately express just how full to the brim it is.

It may seem at times on my blog that I am oft to complain and gripe about the non essentials of life, and that is not what makes up my life. I have so much in my life that I am so very thankful for.

I am thankful for the "materials" in my life: my humble abode, that is furnished, and looks and feels nice and settled. I am thankful for the bookcase lined with books. For my car that keeps on tacking on the miles. For the clothes that line my closet.

But that is just the surface, the things that line the heart of overflowing gratitude.

I am thankful for the people in my life. People who are so varied and unique, yet offer such joy and contemplation. From those that I interact and share community with at church. The TOC staff that signed my bday gift with words of love and appreciation. I am thankful for the people who my parents lead in their church, that their love for my parents extends to me whenever I visit. I am thankful for my San Jose family and that their love is this crazy and zany thing that is simply there. I am thankful for my brothers. I am thankful for my parents, and the recent two weekends wherein I've spent time with them. From shopping, to helping with church set up, to eating, and sharing life. I am thankful for home cooked meals, that somehow the homecooked meals under my mum's hand taste like home - whether it be cheese and pickle rolls or roast chicken, pots, stuffing, veggies and gravy: cooked just for me. I am thankful for my friends - for random conversations with one, that take place most often in parking lots, yet somehow standing under the starlit sky opens up our mouths to share life. I am thankful for friends with whom time can pass yet something happens that connects the two of us again. I am thankful for Marissa and Michael - you know that song, "you are my sunshine. my only sunshine. you make me happy when skies are gray. you'll never know dear how much i love you. please don't take my sunshine away." - that describes my sunshines. They truly do make me happy when skies are gray. They brighten my day in ways that words often fail me.

There may be times that my heart hopes for more. But the reality is I have so much. My cup overflows - it truly does, with treasures of unmeasurable value and unimaginable joy.

I am so thankful God for the joy of life that you continue to reveal around and in me. I am thankful God that in your great goodness and mercy you have filled my heart to the point that it overflows with love and gratitude for the life that you have let me live.