Taking the Initiative

I was reflecting today about my MO when it comes to past relationships, and how I think I am going to change, but really do we change our personalities and how we approach certain parts of life...for instance for as long as I can remember I have taken the initiative in view of dating, or liking someone. Back when I was still in England, and in 6th grade I liked this boy called Nikki Harris, on VDay I gave him a gift and a note that had three boxes to tick: "you hate me," "you like me (as a friend)," and "you fancy me" [fancy is an English word]. Well, he gave it back to me with the "like me" box checked. Then in HS I met someone online who I happened to go to the same church with, I asked him to my Senior Prom, he declined. Then during college I liked someone and had heard he returned the feelings, so I approached him and sort of pushed for a date...nothing came from it, except a great friendship. From that point, I decided no MORE taking the initiative, that I need to wait for the man to approach me, etc. This happened back in the Fall of 06 and I said yes, but then a week later I took the initiative and ended the "relationship." Now there is someone else I might like, and I am having to bite back to not take any initiative -- I am still wanting to be asked out, etc. YET I was looking at the calendar and realized next year is a leap year, which means that on February 29th according to English tradition the woman can ask the man to marry her, and if he says "no" he has to buy her silk underwear... and I joked to my mum that I have just over a year to find someone to ask... Slightly opposite with the view that I want to wait to be asked out - I know!!! It made me think that there are certain elements of who we are that just don't change, that when it comes down to it there are certain characteristics that shine through in our lives no matter how vocifirious we can be about changing that quality. SO, I am still waiting out taking the initiative in dating, but perhaps I won't wait come February 29th 2008!!!